Sometimes Good Is Overrated

The bedtime dilemma has gone on for a while, and then there was the AHA moment in December when Micah just all of a sudden decided that he'd be a big boy and go to bed all on his very own. I was both thrilled and a little sad.

Lately, though, he's been all I Need Mommy To Sit With Me At Bedtime again. I can't say that I'm hating this. Take the other night, for example. Since there was no school (hello, snow days!) we let him wander around upstairs to see what, exactly, he'd do. He knew he couldn't make an appearance in the downstairs because he'd be in Big Trouble, and then herded right back up to bed. I listened to him playing in the hallway, probably debating whether or not to make the descent. I listened to him playing with Woody. I listened to his breathing fall into the regularity of sleep.

He fell asleep on the top step. It was darling.

Tonight I sat with him in bed as we watched television. He has this game where he points and laughs, and expects me to do the same. I have to turn my head to look at him or it doesn't count. While this gets old, it's endearing for a while. Mostly because he made it up and it's something that we share. And then he decided that it was time to actually sleep. He reached out a hand to hold mine as he drifted off into Never Land. I leaned my head down to give him a kiss and he reached up with his free hand to pat me on top of my head. His touch is the most gentle and loving that I've ever experienced.

It's the little things like this that make me love our bedtime dilemma. There are just some things that you miss when you're chasing after the whirling dervish through the day, and herding him back to bed at night. When I take the time to sit with him, it's just us. And it's just wonderful.

So what if I spoil my boy? He's mine, after all.

9 comments:

Michelle said...

Ohhh, Karen, you're making me cry. That is so sweet, and I love how you do that. The love you two share is precious, and the peace it has to bring you both -- it's worth it!

Karen said...

Enjoy ever precious moment. I don't have to tell you have fast they grow up.

Andrea said...

He'll remember all the bedtimes that you sat with him!!! Micha is such a sweetheart!!

Brandie said...

What a sweet reward at the end of the day!

Burgh Baby said...

Secretly, that's why I haven't ripped husband's head off for ruining our perfect bedtime routine. For a long time, I could escort Alexis to bed, read to her, tuck her in, and then leave the room without any drama. He taught her to need someone to cuddle with her until she falls asleep. I can't say that I hate it. At all.

Carol N. said...

Thanks for the smile. Hugs to Micah and the gang!

Fishsticks and Fireflies said...

While part of me is thrilled that Cooper and Maren can now be put in their own beds at night and that I only have one little person taking up half of my bed, the other part of me misses every.single.second of cuddling, of watching their eyelids grow heavy with sleep, and of holding their hand and stroking their cheeks while they drifted off to sleep. Good isn't always better for sure!

Mer said...

Aww - Micah is just the most lovable boy ever! (....um, except for my own boys, but I'm biased!) Seriously - he is just ridiculously sweet and I love reading your vignettes about him! Enjoy every minute of him falling asleep holding your hand!

caramama said...

Awwww. How sweet! He's so adorable.